2:00 a.m. Thoughts

Crazy how far I've come I've shaped my life using power and growth though I feel there's so much to this world I don't know I wake up the same routine phone on messages checked systems online digitally emotionally and honestly I feel like i'm walking on burning Bridges that keep me though the consistent fear is what made me Fearless exaggerated sure but when you understand the concept of what I'm trying to say and how profound it is you'll understand me clearly I feel deeply even though it doesn't show let it be known actions speak louder than words my work speaks for itself I speak for myself though I won't deny sometimes it feels I need someone who can speak for me sometimes I feel requesting help is the only way and that's absolutely okay just don't be the one to rely on somebody be the one to realize you failed and in that exact moment make the painful choice of setting your ego aside and asking for help then from there afterwards you make sure the problem is completely in your and under your control next time learn from your mistakes.

Ever since my mother has been in jail I've really started locking in been more physical lately either I'm sleeping hard or I'm online now it's I'm either sleeping hard online or getting s*** done with the help of my neighbor I've been fixing up the shed closest to the house on my property on my own I've already done a good amount of tasks to bring this place back up the par not too much but not too little I've done where I could do best and to be honest the reason why I can't really update AuraWulf there's really not much to update AuraWulf Nexus has much potential that's why I'm going crazy with it right now that's how much I'm locking in that every change I make I run the risk of having no more updates cuz I'm doing them at scale.

I'd say I'm not the perfect person but I'm also not the worst person in the family and within my own community I'm sorry for my failures but I'm not sorry for being myself rest assured I'll keep doing what I can